You Had Me

You always had me,

When you told me, "I Do."

Didn't turned out to be,

While I regretted, because ‘‘I Do.''

Was never content when you had me,

Coveted and sought for other distractions.

Ought to tests and gain, by hurting me,

While seeking different satisfactions.

Your presence, when you wished, is to be thanked for.

Yet when actually needed, was never to be found.

Love of yours was of a ''special'' kind, for my life it devours.

And you kept digging me back to the ground.

Underdemeciated yourself, when the real you was I honestly admired;

However, it was the sinister mind of yours, of which I was tired.

Way you put yourself to become what you are not;

Drove me away from you,

All these years near and far, you easily forgot.

I know I’ve been at fault, but you ain't clean either;

Where I lacked actions, you were on a different plane altogether.

It was not meant to be, none to be blamed;

It would have been the best, oh what a shame!

You are gone gone, far far away;

Now you have become too cool for me.

You will stay in your place of my heart forever, come what may;

You'll always be beautiful just the way as I used to see.

Now wherever I look, I see your beautiful eyes, hair and cheek;

Don’t know what is wrong with me; probably your glimpse is all I seek.

Moving on, you be happy and safe, is all I want, forever;

I’ll be here always, you know that, for our promise I’ll forget never.

Beseech for Beloved

Why I am visiting this temple of Yours I have no clue,
I am dumbfounded and unclear.
I wonder where I felt the truce and serenity that I find here,
Ah! I know. When I am with You.

Makes me envisage, God works in his Mysterious ways,
He brought You to me, then took You away.
Bought me to Himself now, wonder what He takes.
Obscured from You, my heart aches.

God acquaints peace and happiness at his abode's almsdeed,
Little does he know, mines with You.
Humans are covetous, they elicit God when there's a need,
It's truthful, as I am here since I need You.

He proclaims profound perseverance provides prosperity,
Hence, today I adhere with your verity.
Of all the benediction I could construe,
I am a simple man, I only want You.

LONG LIVE LINKIN PARK

When our CASTLE OF GLASS will be VICTIMISED because of your LIES, GREED, MISERY leaving me POWERLESS there; I'LL BE GONE away, before and UNTIL IT BRAKES, on the ROADS UNTRAVELLED and you will be searching from SKIN TO BONE breaking all the TINFOILS. But leaving it all IN MY REMAINS, I’ll already be LOST IN THE ECHO.

LONG LIVE LINKIN PARK...

I’m Not Here To Stay.

I’m not here to stay.

Cos I have got only one more day.

I wish I could stay,

Just for one more day.

I won’t be here anymore, anyway.

Dish out your heart on this tray,

Before your mind goes astray.

Before the day,

When your hair turns grey,

And your lips would say,

Wish I had one more day.

We won’t be here anymore, anyway.

All of us parted on own destined way,

Looking back on that special day,

Still, the memories starts to sway.

And none of us will remember that day.

When we wished, I had one more day.

To have stayed here and seen another day.

I won’t be here anymore, anyway.

I turn to the Almighty to wish and pray,

To prevent us from becoming a prey,

From our evil deed and ill way,

Cos I have got one more day.

I won’t be here anymore, anyway.

Things I Wanted to Say

It’s when to me, that she touches.
All the secure feeling for me it vouches.
In her presence I am complete;
In her manifest my heart retreat.

The days spent with her;
Are the days I’ve lived for!
Though the days comes in weeks and months in between;
Can’t explain, for me, what those days mean.

The countless times she said those '3 words' to me;
Those moments are the happiest I’ve ever been or could ever be...!
Things to her, I wanted to say.
If I had only a way:

"It's that look in your eye;
It's the smile on your face.
That makes time slip by;
And I know I'm in a better place.

It's the memories of you;
That makes my sky turn blue.
And I’ll let you know these feelings I have are true;
It's hard to imagine a future, one without you.

You've brought in my life all your love and care;
When I see it now, I realised how rare.
It’s you who has illuminated my soul;
It's your love that has made me whole.

Wish there was a way, in which I could let you know;
How much you meant to me some time ago.
Not that now I love you any less;
But dreary me, things between us became a mess.

We were meant to be, 
Like we dreamt of being together.
Now it’s not the same anymore maybe,
Things between us like this are way better.

Now you have spent your days, the way you wanted;
and I am taking my days seems like granted.
So let’s keep our things this way;
My feelings towards you will remain the same, I’ll always say.

In this life, I pray, you receive all that you deserve,
And also receive for your words and action yet in reserve.
So what if I’m not there right next to you;
We’ll have our things together like before, someday new."

Baby Sister

Calm as Summer Sea;

Or the torment as a twister.

If I could have one wish it would be;

The best in the world for my Baby Sister.

Always helping through my good and bad;

Sharing secrets and experiences.

You are the best one I’ve ever had;

For you were always there, before anyone, for my incoherences.

Though I’m sure my teases will not end here;

I don’t doubt some of your headaches are because of me.

Your every merit, all successes, I’ll be there to cheer;

Just as you stood there, when I needed, in glee.

Teaching me things I never bothered to care;

Carrying out my chores, on a single request.

I get shivers with that dreary glare;

Did things I never would for the love and lest.

My appreciation for you has no end;

You’ll always be my sister and my best friend.

She HATES me, Instead.

She HATES me.
With all her heart and all her soul.
I was hopeless,
I couldn't do anything right.
When she was in darkness, I offered her no light,
When she was down, I didn't lift her up,
When she cried, I didn't make her laugh,
Instead, I joined her.

She HATES me.
With all her strengths and all her weaknesses,
I was hopeless,I couldn't make her smile.
When she was tired, I offered her no balm,
When she was wounded, I did not cure her,
When she was running, I didn't stop her.
Instead, I joined her.

She HATES me.
With all her memories and all her thoughts,
I was hopeless,I couldn't make her mine.
When she will need a door to shut, I won't be there,
When she will want to collapse, I won't catch her,
When she'll be desperate to be broken, I won't fix her,
I still am hopeless,
Instead, I'll join her.

SHE

She touched your heart;

Then ripped it out.

She broke you from the start,

Drank your blood, when you had a drought.

She sucked you dry;

She left you high.

Deceiving through the ally;

Loving you was for her, a far cry.

She broke you like a twig;

She pierced your soul, as you fell apart.

You wish your grave she dig;

Saving rain in empty dessert, that’s her heart.

She poisoned your mind;

She got inside your soul.

Her company had you blind;

Yet when with her, you had no parole.

Was so easy for Her, for I’ve been forgotten,

Memories remained are just fruit that is rotten..!!

Say It Out

Things in my heart never was able to say it out.

You are my most precious, without a doubt.

Finding ways to let you know my feelings,

All were in vain, and I was left back still reeling...!!

So tell me, let me know what I should do?

What should I become?

To be right there with you.

For I assure you, I will walk a million mile.

Climb mountains, cross oceans; for your beautiful smile.

I'll be your shoulder if you'll need one;

But work on so when you're with me, you'll need none.

I'll be a clown, to make you laugh when you are sad;

For when we are together I’ll assure nothing will go bad...

Whatever are the circumstances I’ll happily face it by your side.

Cos when I’m with you, my heart is on a rollercoaster ride.

/doesn't matter even if life keeps running like a rollercoaster ride.

Yet there is no other way I could convey this to you.

That my heart falls in your love every time, just like new...

8 Years Long

Feeling lost, as I walk through the hell town,

N then all of a sudden, I fall down.....

Felt this time will always stay, but it all disbursed;

I feel like m getting over it.....but m actually getting worse.

I was never deceitful, never a pretender.

Our days were the days I remember.

Reminisceting through her fading memories, she provokes;

So am burning all those memories in smokes.

I gave you my life's 8 long loving years,

Now I’m far from you grinding my gears.

Every time we met I used to hug, and kiss her on a forehead,

Now it's just her memory in sleepless nights, and tears I shed.

So much violence, so much anger n frustration trapped inside of me.

In the anticipation feel like I’m now on a killing spree.

Can't help myself to get over everything... Messed up feelings...

This hatred, this pain caused seems never healing.

What have you done to me?

Get out of my mind and see.....

What I have been changed into,

All this because of you...

I was waiting for you all the time,

But you treated me like I did a big crime.

Every retention of you hurts me like a knife,

But I'll have to deal with this for my entire life.....

Moving on was so facile for you,

Yet still have no idea what I've been through....!!

FAILURE

When the world you live in;
Turns a blindfold on you.
Once it forgets what you mean;
You'll be replaced by something new.

Your single failure will tear you down;
All your laurels will be forgotten.
You'll feel like abandoning yourself from the town;
Prejudice from loved ones, where will you go then?

You'll be feeling down and out;
Like it’s the end of the world.
Doesn't matter what it’s all about;
The stones at you will be hurled.

So tell me what you gonna do..?
Will you sit back or will you fight?
When the world is against you;
You'll favour sleep, or work every night?

Cos your failure is not the end;
It’s a stepping stone to success.
Not unless you commit and amend;
Reinitiate your doings now with some aggress.

For when you have a failure mark in your book;
It’s not the end of the world as you know.
Now you have to find the motivation, wherever you look;
The more the world put you down, the stronger you grow...!!

Angel

From the moment of the first breath we drew;
How flimsy we are, God knew.
So He bestowed us with an Angel;
Who looked after us with eyes brown as hazel.

Since then on, that angel took our care;
Like a duty, she must abide.
Life to her then never turned to be fair;
As she stayed awake all night, when we cried.

Blessed our souls forever being present;
Understanding our needs even before we speak.
Her anger, and so was her love a torment;
Yet was there to teach us, give the guidance we seek.

She took care of us in tenderness;
As we grew a little.
She bared through our teenage wilderness;
Growing up still, yet without her we're brittle.

She forgot herself in endeavour of our providing;
Doesn’t even remember when last she dressed up, combed her hair.
Was a source of our teaching, manners was her guiding;
Her sacrifices are something no man can ever compare.

You might have hurt her while you were growing up;
But she is the one you can always resort to.
To sort things in your life rest your head on her lap;
For there’s heaven beneath her feet is true.

She was your first teacher, your first friend;
In your potential, she will always believe.
For you, she will always descend;
No matter where you go, she is the one whom you can never leave.

So as you grow old, so does she;
She will need you the way you needed her when you couldn't even eat.
So now be the reason for her glee;
For now, you know what lies beneath her feet.

There’s no better time for you to express the love in your heart;
As the love in her heart is abundant and never ending.
There’s no other person on this earth who can play her part;
Thankful to God for this beautiful blessing.

Thankful for the blessing one after another,
Brought on to us by the Angel in the form of our
Mother.

Waiting for HER

Though I’m done waiting for Her;

I'm all screwed up, but it ain't over.

She'll never know what I’ve been through for Her;

My life's best moments are one spent with Her,

And those times are one I’ll cherish forever.

I refrained saying those "Three words" recently,

Neither does She wants to hear those from me.

Every time I come across something She relates,

My eyes spark up, heart elevates.

She is been disquieted by her atrocious past,

But I assure Her, unlike others, my love will last.

She has made home in solitary life and steadfast head,

Why doesn’t she give a try to love instead?

Not a moment passed when my mind She didn't occupy,

Yet our conversation sucked no matter how hard I try.

Her habits are nothing like any other girl, like a sky with a free bird;

Doesn’t matter cos she makes other girls look no better than a turd.

I'm ready to take Her every anger, every frown;

And be even if She ask me to be silly as a clown.

No matter where we go, what happens from here on;

She will always be my Special One...!!!